About

About me

Read what a friend and former student had to say about me.

I recently moved to Humboldt County, California. For ten years prior to this I lived in Flagstaff Arizona with a special cat.

Briefly.

I started meditating in 1979. In 1980 I became a Tibetan Buddhist and that lead me to the realization that I had to recall past lives. For me it was necessary. I seemed to need to iron out conflicts in this life that I felt past lives had created in me. I was set up by genetics and God to recall past lives. My mother also has very vivid memories of multiple past lives so it is definitely genetic. I finally took the plunge and committed myself to this path in 1980.

At first a few pleasant memories would come up and then a bad one would start to. Being painful I would block that memory and all of them would pile up behind it. (That is why many people have a few memories of a past life and then they stop remembering them. They stopped them.) If you can accept the painful memories then they won't stop. So I just let the memories flow.

Let me go into a little more detail. Specifically, associated with each past life memory is an emotion. When you block the associated emotion of a memory then you don't get any more memories. Neither more memories or the emotions that are associated with them. Specifically I have to feel each emotion strongly once and then I get to see the next vision/emotions. Then all I have to do is see a certain number of memories from that lifetime and then that entire lifetime of memories becomes as easy to access as the words of a book on a shelf. It's is pretty durn logical and stepwise. Get rid of everything blocking past lives and they will come through a lot clearer and stronger.

I focused inward 24/7. Every time I would change my focus it would take up to six weeks to get back to my path. So to save time I focusing outward as little as possible and focused inward as much as was possible.

I thought it would take me three years at the most. I had no idea at the start that I was going to set out to recall 70 lives and that it would take me 30 years or frankly I never would have done it.

Then at 11:08 am on June 6, 2013 I finally merged all 70 lives. It was not as straightforward and simple as I make it sound. Every seven lifetimes or about 500 years I merge them together. I found that if I just remembered enough memories the 'door' between this lifetime and that lifetime would stay open. Then the rest of that lifetime would be as if I was living 7 lives at once. Having the wisdom and knowledge of 7 people, not just one. I happily did this and when I finished all 6 lives after a total of about 5 years I realized that I had done this same thing 9 times before. I then realized that in this life I had to merge my group of 7 lives with the previous 9 groups. 70 lives total. That is what took most of those 30 years. Let me tell you when I first realized that I had to do this I was just completely pissed off. Why do I not get to live a normal life. The way my ego wanted it to be with a little house and white picket fence. After a week my anger changed. Then I just walked around a very upset and confused mess for a month until I accepted this as part of my path. Shadows of Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane I had no life left for me to do what my ego wanted to do...to have fun.

But after you accept a few deaths it all gets pretty easy. Then dealing with past life memories becomes rather fun...like watching movies but you are in the scenes. 'Oh, here comes my death scene when I die in that lifetime.' The images I have are that vivid. I could no more deny these memories than the memories I have of my childhood in this life time. In fact those past life memories are often more vivid than the memories I have of this life when I was a child. A few like my memories of Jesus just leave me in awe.

It is really hard to recall past lives and at the same time write those memories down. I cant just tune in to a past life and tune out this life and by that I mean mainly my body which would be very easy to do in comparison to typing down the memories as they come up. I have to go back and forth in my mind hundreds of years and I have to do this up to 6 times a second when I am typing down these memories of past lives! And let me tell you: That is hard to do!

John About two and a half years ago I discovered that I was highly allergic to blue food coloring (specifically FD&C Blue #1). It caused everything from ADD symptoms to confusion, migraine headaches, memory lapses and a disruption of my mental functions which in turn changed every single day of my life into one of continuous pain and anxiety. It was a very unhappy state of affairs.

Nearly everything seems to use blue food coloring as a ingredient from jello to mouth wash. Anything colored blue or green (when it is mixed with yellow) has FD&C blue #1 in it (also known as Brilliant Blue, FD&C Blue No.1, Food Blue 2, Acid Blue 9, D&C Blue No. 4, Alzen Food Blue No. 1, Alphazurine, Atracid Blue FG, Erioglaucine, Eriosky blue, Patent Blue AR, Xylene Blue VSG, and C.I. 42090).

That allergic reaction lasts for over 5 days. Unfortunately, I as do most people, ate something with blue food coloring several times a day. I got a really high amount about every three days. You can do the math. My attention was never drawn to it as a possible source of an allergy since I was never free of the symptoms it caused. I had never known a day free from that poison since I was breast feed by my mother.

They used to outlaw Blue #1 in many European countries but I don't know if they still do.

Coal Tar Dyes – (includes D&C Blue 1, Green 3, Yellow 5, Yellow 6, Red 33, etc.)
Even though their carcinogenicity has recently been proven, the 1938 Act includes a specific exemption for them. Severe allergic reactions, asthma attacks, headaches, nausea, fatigue, lack of concentration, nervousness, increased risk of Hodgkin’s disease, non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma and multiple myeloma. Found in bubble bath, hair dye, dandruff shampoo, toothpaste and foods. Here

And

Brilliant Blue or Blue #1, is a coal tar dye (used in alcoholic cordials and liqueurs, bread, caviar, skim milk, prepared fish, and meats) that promote breast and kidney tumors in lab animals. For that reason it’s widely banned in Europe. Here

Since the amount added is not regulated food manufacturers often add much more blue dye in the U.S. than in European countries. Often on the order of several hundred times the amount.

Have you ever heard of anything so strange in your entire life?

Meditation helped resolve the confusion and surprisingly so did remembering past lives. The past life memories supplied a 'template' for my thoughts. It wasn't an overly powerful template but it did influence my thinking for the better. Memories of my past lives were far less painful than thinking about this life. And that my friend was probably why I was allergic.

Knowing I had something wrong physically, but not what, I took biochemistry in college but I did not discover what it was then. I developed medical devices that normalized brain function back in the 1980's (nearly identical to the Third Eye Machine I write about here.). They did help but I still did not discover the cause of my problem at the time. They worked very well with others for normalizing mental aberrations caused by brain malfunction such as sleep disorders, stroke, post concussion syndrome, etc and they sold quite well on the market. It was a great business until I moved near a 7-Eleven with their tons of blue dye #1.

The inflammation/irritation created pain which was always there 24/7. At times it manifested in a migraine headaches which often led to hospitalization. Then there was self medication for both the migraines and the 24/7 inflammation. Then there were the near fatal motorcycle accidents, etc, etc. These abrupt changes in my life for the worst had only one common factor and that is they were all spontaneous, impulsive and never planned out ahead of time. But these allergic reactions got me to look at my past lives.

My allergy also affects my writing. The effects of blue dye #1 can be clearly seen on many pages on this web site that have not been updated. I am famous for leaving out words, a kind of 'writing dyslexia'.

I suffered from abject poverty and at times I ran out of food so my teeth literally fell out. In what is perhaps the most incredible irony of my life I had to go on a clean out of my kitchen and for two weeks had no food other than noodles and cheese. So for two weeks I had not a bit of blue dye. This absence of blue dye in my poor diet exposed it as my allergy when I drank a glass of 'blue' kool aid and promptly came down with a horrible migraine headache (after losing about 3 teeth). Should I be grateful or not?

[Authors note: I could gripe about this for eternity and I might but this is what it took to get me here. It's only every 70 lifetimes that I have to go through this much work so I really have no right to complain.]

Now it is over. I'm fine. So a 50+ year nightmare has finally ended. In fact I am content about 99.5% of the time.

A British person humorously implied that I was delusional. His email was nice and he used that dry English humor which leaves you uncertain of what to take seriously and what not to. How did I reply? In kind.

I personally think that the most interesting account of past life recall is that of General George S. Patton. I write about it here.