About me
Read what a friend and former student said about me. About
six months ago I discovered that I was highly allergic to blue
food coloring (specifically FD&C Blue #1). It caused everything
from ADD symptoms to confusion, migraine headaches, memory lapses and a
disruption of my mental functions which in turn changed every
single day of my life into one of continuous pain and anxiety. It was a
very unhappy state of affairs.Nearly everything seems to use blue food coloring as a ingredient from jello to mouth wash. Anything colored blue or green (when it is mixed with yellow) has FD&C blue #1 in it (also known as Brilliant Blue, FD&C Blue No.1, Food Blue 2, Acid Blue 9, D&C Blue No. 4, Alzen Food Blue No. 1, Alphazurine, Atracid Blue FG, Erioglaucine, Eriosky blue, Patent Blue AR, Xylene Blue VSG, and C.I. 42090). That allergic reaction lasts for over 4 days. Unfortunately, I as do most people, ate something with blue food coloring several times a day. My attention was never drawn to it as a possible source of an allergy since I was never free of the symptoms it caused. I had never known a day free from that poison since I was breast feed by my mother. They used to outlaw Blue #1 in many European countries but I don't know if they still do. Coal Tar Dyes – (includes D&C Blue 1, Green 3, Yellow 5, Yellow 6, Red 33, etc.) Even though their carcinogenicity has recently been proven, the 1938 Act includes a specific exemption for them. Severe allergic reactions, asthma attacks, headaches, nausea, fatigue, lack of concentration, nervousness, increased risk of Hodgkin’s disease, non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma and multiple myeloma. Found in bubble bath, hair dye, dandruff shampoo, toothpaste and foods. Here And Brilliant Blue or Blue #1, is a coal tar dye (used in alcoholic cordials and liqueurs, bread, caviar, skim milk, prepared fish, and meats) that promote breast and kidney tumors in lab animals. For that reason it’s widely banned in Europe. Here Since the amount added is not regulated they often add much more in the U.S. than in European countries. Often on the order of several hundred times the amount. Have you ever heard of anything so strange in your entire life? Meditation helped resolve the confusion and surprisingly so did remembering past lives. The past life memories supplied a 'template' for my thoughts. It wasn't an overly powerful template but it did influence my thinking for the better. Memories of my past lives were far less painful than just thinking in this life. Knowing something was wrong physically, but not what, I took biochemistry in college but I did not discover what it was then. I developed medical devices that normalized brain function back in the 1980's (nearly identical to the Third Eye Machine I write about here.). They did help but I still did not discover the cause of my problem at the time. They worked very well with others for normalizing mental aberrations caused by brain malfunction such as sleep disorders, stroke, post concussion syndrome, etc and sold quite well on the market. It was a great business until I moved near a 7-Eleven with their tons of blue dye #1. The inflammation/irritation created pain which was always there 24/7. At times it manifested in a migraine headaches which often led to hospitalization. There was self medication for both the migraines and the 24/7 inflammation. Then there were the near fatal motorcycle accidents, etc, etc. These abrupt changes in my life for the worst had only one common factor and that is they were all spontaneous, impulsive and never planned out ahead of time. It also affects my writing. The effects of blue dye #1 can be clearly seen on many pages on this web site that have not been updated. I am famous for leaving out words, a kind of 'writing dyslexia'. I suffered from abject poverty and at times I ran out of food so my teeth literally fell out. In what is perhaps the most incredible irony of my life I had to go on a clean out of my kitchen and for two weeks had no food other than noodles and cheese. So for two weeks I had not a bit of blue dye. This absence of blue dye in my poor diet exposed it as my allergy when I drank a glass of 'blue' kool aid and promptly came down with a horrible migraine headache (after losing about 8 teeth). Should I be grateful or not? Now it is over. I'm fine. So a 50+ year nightmare has finally ended. In fact I am content about 99.5% of the time. (Written in May 2008) All the confusion is dissolving and my emotional growth is starting now, from the age of about 14 years old. Perhaps that is too all encompassing. Parts of my emotional growth were blocked while other parts were unaffected. Emotional understandings that were built up from other understandings often never were understood by me. The pieces rarely fit together. Whatever mechanism in the brain automatically does that naturally, it was about the first thing to stop working when taking blue dye. I can intellectually understand those emotions through my memories of a past life when I had that understanding in that previous lifetime. So I have the emotional understanding of a 56 year old, a 14 year old and those from about 70 other lifetimes of varying ages and both sexes. I was always a nice person though. That niceness is one common thread all my previous lives have. It's not to be underrated. Being nice is one of the main things that allows a person to recall past lives. (Nice people are people you want to know even if that person was you in a previous life, and especially if that person was you. Allergies aside, my heart is always in the right place. In this life I would especially like to meet a lady like I was in the 16th century.) If it had not been for my food allergy I would be an average 'Joe'. Don't envy me or the pain that I have gone through to divert me into the dangerous path I ended up taking, which I almost only did in order to resolve the problems created by my allergy. On the light side I would probably never have learned to meditate and it goes without saying that I would never have learned to recall previous lives had it not been for the allergy. This is a 'path' that I never would have taken had it been my choice. I guess in a way what I did could be likened to advanced study. This is probably the equivalent of earning 10 doctorates. If anyone did such a thing then they would end up becoming a person with lots of skills and knowledge that they could really accomplish a lot with. That is essentially what I did by meditating for 27 years but as I said it took a lot to get me to do it. Would you voluntarily spend 27 years in college getting advanced degrees if pain wasn't involved? Me neither. Probably not unless your feet were held over a fire like mine essentially were. Please don't envy my recall of past lives but if you still do then I pray that the almighty gives you an allergy that you don't know about in your next lifetime, just like I have. I'll be sure to ask that it be one that thwarts everything that you try to do, makes life next to impossible, causes terminal conflicts with all your relationships which leads you to live your life abandoned, alone and in tremendous agony. Oh, don't thank me yet. Two days of this allergy and you would probably wish that you had never been born. The fortunate thing is that I needed to recall these past lives and it would never have occurred if it had not been for this allergy. There fore the allergy was pre destined.
There are other ways of recalling previous lives and developing inner understandings but there isn't usually a strong incentive to do so. Knowing others who were friends of yours in past lives often works because you have to recall that past life or at least understand it in order to relate to that person fully. It's a lot more fun than allergic reactions.
The most interesting account of past life recall is that of General George S. Patton. I write about it here. Previous
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